When everything you have ever wanted is finally done with
When all of your nightmares are for a time obscured
As by a shining brainless beacon
Or a blinding eclipse of the many terrible shapes of this world
When you are calm and joyful
And finally entirely alone
Then in a great new darkness
You will finally execute your special plan
I have recently finished reading two of the shorter works by one Julius Bahnsen, one of the three main representatives of German Idealist Pessimism during the 19th century, the other two being Edward Von Hartmann and Philipp Mainlander, Bahnsen being by far the most obscure of these three thinkers. In these readings, I have found several similarities to Thomas Ligotti's disturbing poem I Have A Special Plan For This World.
In Bahsen's thought, which could be accurately described as absolute, unrelenting pessimism, there is no possible redemption or salvation from this world (as opposed to Schopenhauer, who advised either asceticism or a calm contemplation of art, or Mainlander, who thought universal redemption was inevitable because of entropy through some very clever readings of his contemporary physicians, namely Boltzmann). Likewise, he thought that any attempts at reaching redemption from existence are doomed and delusional from the beginning. "Redemption from existence" is exactly the "plan" of the narrator:
Imagine he said all the flesh that is eaten
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The teeth tearing into it
The tongue tasting it's flavor
And the hunger for that taste
Now take away that flesh he said
Take away the teeth and the tongue
The taste and the hunger
Take away everything as it is
That was my plan
My own special plan for this world
I listened to these words and yet I did not wonder
If this creature whom I had thought sleeping or dead would ever approach his vision
Even in his deepest dreams
Or his most lasting death
Because I had heard of such plans such visions
And I knew they did not see far enough
But what was demanded in a way of a plan
Needed to go beyond tongue and teeth and hunger and flesh
Beyond the bones and the very dust of bones and the wind that would come to blow the dust away
And so I began to envision a darkness that was long before the dark of night
And a strangely shining light
That owed nothing to the light of day
The narrator seems to think that all existence is a grind, from the line: "Once more we are mangled by a great grinding fear". The wording here, grinding, is particularly reminiscent of Bahnsen's epitaph "Vita mea irritus labor", latin for "My life was pointless work".
Likewise, the following verse has several Bahnsean elements in it:
There are no means for escaping this world
It penetrates even into your sleep
And is his substance
You are caught in your own dreaming
Where there is no space
And a hell forever where there is no time
You can't do nothing you aren't told to do
There is no hope for escape from this dream
"There are no means to escaping this world / It penetrates into your sleep" Is a very Bahnsean notion. There is no means to escape the horrible suffering of existence because of the principle of contradiction, which is to say, Bahnsen says that there was not one single, "cosmic" Will like Schopenhauer thought, but rather, every individual had several Wills in himself, the Will to do something, and these Wills contradicted each other, thus making the individual forever miserable since his desires are always contradicting each other. Thus, even in sleep, there is no escape from existence. Likewise, it's interesting that Bahsen thought that there would never be a sort of escape from existence, and it would just continue on forever. Life is just a nightmare for him, and this imagery seems quite like his ideas. One would be remiss to not mention Alfred Kubin's novel The Other Side, which took influence from Bahnsen as well as Mainlander.
The entire verse about "designs upon this world" applies as well: Just like Mainlander, Bahnsen disagreed with the leftists who thought that existence was fundamentally good, it was just made into suffering by this or that entity. For Bahnsen, no revolution, no utopia would relieve us from suffering, not because revolutions or utopias are impossible, but because the problem relies on existence itself. Reality itself is ontologically painful, and thus, neither right-wing nor left-wing "solutions" would fix Humanity's suffering.
he verse about "the funny man" might as well be about Bahnsen too, thought it is likely a reference to John Doe from Ligotti's story The Frolic: Bahnsen believed that it was humor that it was "in possession of the correct ethical metric" because it was only humor that could simultaneously relieve tension and suffering and acknowledge existence (which is to say, the "being" of whatever grotesque thing is the subject of the comedy) as being nightmarish. Referring to the man, his walk and his plan seems to coincide with this.
Finally, at the very end, the first verse is repeated, only broken, somewhat depressed, melancholically... This repetition, for me, always indicated that the "special plan" would never come to fruition, it's just a fantasy that the narrator holds to endure the constant grinding, and at the end, perhaps he realizes this, somewhat like how the narrator from The Bungalow House knows his maxim in a way he never did before. All hopes of fixing this universe are ultimately doomed, for the narrator dreams of an utopia of non-being, but he dreams of an utopia all the same, a place where there are no more contradictions, and like Bahnsen said: "The world is an inextricable tangle of contradictions of the most tragic negativity."


